Sunday, February 9, 2014

Change Is Good

I am very excited to say that I have a new website and that I will be posting from there now.  Lots of cool posts like some of the recipes of foods I love to make and my own weight loss journey!  I even have articles about the new look of business and of course I will not leave out the inspirational goodies!

So please my dear readers go to to see more!

Have a very blessed and wonderful day!

PS and don't forget that I love feedback so feel free to leave a comment and share your thoughts with me.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Praising the Lord

I sat with a cup of Jasmine Green Tea this morning with my Bible on my lap, opened it and let the pages fall open randomly then closed my eyes and placed my finger on the page and this is what it said, "Let everything that has breath praise the Lord."  Psalm 150:6
Yes and I shall as I sit on this beautiful Saturday morning having a a day off and break from work looking at the many boxes packed and ready to be moved to a new home and yet still hanging in the balance all I can do is Praise the Lord.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

When God Sends Angel's

In previous posts I have said that I am in this alone this time but God sends angel's.  The first time I went through a divorce and purchased my own home my mother was alive.  This past week I celebrated being legally divorced for 1 year and I am in the process of purchasing a town home.  It has been incredibly stressful and amazing at the same time.

As a Physical Therapist Assistant working in the Skilled Nursing Home environment I have experienced 3 patients that have made me feel my mother's presence so strongly that one day I came home calling a friend of mine crying and not understanding what was happening.  Then suddenly I realized that one woman has the same illness and terminal diagnosis as my Mother but she is crabby and although she has 4 children non of them are here with her and she is now on hospice.  This part is not at all like my Mother but I watch this woman suffer the same pain.

The second woman has the sweet, gentle and compassionate nature as my Mother and I love talking to her.

The third is a 5 foot small woman with a sense of humor and belly laugh just like my Mother.  She is sweet and she looks so much like my Mother.  We laugh and cry together.  She has said things to me that are word for word exactly what my Mother has said to me.  Many times I have left her room praising God for his good grace!

I am blessed and I know it!

Saturday, November 3, 2012


This is so funny!  I had to share this joke!

A business man got on an elevator.

When he entered, there was a blonde already

inside who greeted him with a bright, "T-G-

I-F."He smiled at her and replied, "S-H-I-T."

She looked puzzled and repeated, "T-G-I-F,"

more slowly.He again answered, "S-H-I-T."

The blonde was trying to keep it friendly, so 

she smiled her biggest smile, and said as

 sweetly as possibly, "T-G-I-F."The man 

smiled back to her and once again, "S-H-I-T."

The exasperated blonde finally decided to 

explain.'T-G-I-F' means 'Thank Goodness 

It's Friday.' Get it, duuhhh?"The man 

answered, "'S-H-I-T' means 'Sorry, Honey, 

It's Thursday.'"

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Celebrating my friend's!

This is a glorious morning! Thank you God!

Went for a walk and thought about all the friends I have, old and new and felt so blessed by each one for the good times as well as the not so good times that have taught me amazing lessons in life.  Acquaintances that became incredibly close friendships in a short amount of time, friendships that simmer slowly throughout many years and the fleeting moment friendships that come and go just at the right time that deliver just what you need at that very moment!

"Everyone needs friends.  When you're with them, you can be totally lost, yet feel right at home.  You can be heartbroken, yet find yourself giggling uncontrollably.  You can be doing something that should be completely boring and realize that you're having the time of your life."  --------- Sarah Mueller

I feel so blessed for all my friendships!

Thinking about all my relationships.  Where they are now.  Where they have gone and where they are going and then of course having faith in God to be the captain of my ship and continue to guide me!

Love all my friend's!

Have a glorious day!

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Are You Hiding The Real YOU?

Be real!  Stop hiding and stop trying so hard to be what everyone else wants you to be.  

Be who God created you to be because that is the REAL you!

Friday, October 5, 2012

Forgiveness sets you free!

I can say "Thank you for my experiences good and not so good."

Can you say it and know true forgiveness?

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

So, this is what I heard....

Behind every strong, confident man is a beautiful powerful woman who loves him


behind every beautiful powerful woman is a strong confident man who loves her!

Just for fun I am very curious to know what you think about this.

This could be interesting so leave your comments below.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Challenged to give the woman's version!

So a friend posted this on facebook....

and I said I loved it.

Then he challenged me to come up with the woman's version!  

So here it is;

 A girl spends her time looking for the

 great romance. A woman realizes that

 the romance is with the man who finds

 her worth waking up to. :) 

Damn that

was good if I don't say so myself!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

When the Sacred is Torn From Your Life and YOU Survive

Held by Natalie Grant (Click here to listen to the song)

She is a christian singer and she sings about the sacred being torn from your life and when it is you will be HELD and you will survive.  

I have listened to this song so many times since my Mother died and every time I have seen the sacred as my Mom when she died of cancer.  But in my more recent transitions of life I have suddenly realized that the sacred that was torn from my life was ME.

The only ME I have ever known for 52 years;  Following when I can, Leading when I have to, jumping in with both feet, staying when I should leave, choosing courage instead of running, giving everything I believe I have to give until there is nothing left, doing tough love when it hurts like hell, feeling so proud of my biological kids and feeling so fearful of my adopted son and his diagnosis and wondering what the future meant for him as well as me.

Seeing the troubles in my second marriage mostly a result of my ex - husband having the same diagnosis lead to me making the only sound decision I finally could make which was divorce.  It truly was the best decision for all of us.  My 2 biological kids who are adults finally got me back and my adopted son finally got a closer relationship with his father that he had been longing for.  Through the joint custody agreement he had one on one time with his dad that filled an emptiness inside him.

When I met this boy I knew there was something different about him that was out of the norm.  I adopted him when I married his father because he had never had a mom because his mother died when he was 4 weeks old.  I wrote about our journey in past posts and you can go back a few years to find them if you want to read about it.  I was very open about it. 

Mostly, I poured out love and did the hardest work as a parent I could have ever imagined.  Then this summer my ex-husband has had changes in his life and is engaged to be married and has asked for full custody of our son.  I agreed because I know it is right but it felt so strange for me as a mother to give up full custody of a child.  And doing "the hard work" is all I have come to know so what did this look like for me now to enjoy life, to enjoy my relationships with my other 2 kids and be able to enjoy a season of life with my adopted son, one that doesn't require so much work.

Suddenly, there was a ME being torn from my life and a month later I was committed to volunteering to staff a seminar/workshop with Klemmer & Associates that my daughter was going to be participating in as a student and it allowed me to be shifted and shed my past.  My daughter got to see me giving love and the best parts of me to others and that allowed her to see it differently than what she saw for 7 years with her adopted brother.  She was shifted also.

Mother's Day 2012, my 23 yr old son, Dan wrote this to me in a card; "You have always shown me to be strong in all situations, no matter how crazy they are.  Seeing you on your current journey makes me finally at peace after what we all went through including divorce with our dad and everything after.  You are a loving Mom and person with a great heart."

More recently as I worried about the changes with my son John taking place I was fearful that he would back slide and lose everything I had taught and given him but the ripple effects of my journey spread to him as well.  I always talk very openly and have gone back to my past only to see where I have come to and how far I have come and to recognize the things that I do not want to repeat.  I have told John that it is alright to look at what is behind you as long as you keep moving forward.  So just a few days ago John says to me, "Mom, this boy in my Sunday School class has Asperger's and he talks out of turn and sometimes says inappropriate things and I realized that I can remember being that way but I don't do those things anymore."  With a huge proud smile on my face I say to him, "No you don't John!  You have come a long way!"

This right here allowed me to shed the last layer of my most recent past and allowed me to surrender to the ME being torn from my life and be fully open to what God has planned for my future.

I am looking forward to the next season of life with my family!

Monday, September 17, 2012

Looking forward to my future!

So I climbed a pole in the Redwood Forest about 50 feet high......... do exactly what the photo at the top of this page says!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

"7 Colors Of Feelings"

I absolutely loved this when I saw it!  I shared it on facebook but had to post it on my blog as well.  All the books out there and therapy sessions that couples can go through and the cost of all of that and yet here in this quote above it seems so simple and clear.

"2 hearts sharing 7 colors of feelings."  Hmm, I knew right away when I saw this which one's were missing from both my relationships that I was committed to.  This really helped me to see this spelled out this way and I will try hard to never get into a relationship that is missing one of the 7 colors of the relationship rainbow of feelings again.

It wasn't right for me to settle for 6 out of 7 or 5 out of 7 ect.  Then I tried to get the ones that weren't there and that becomes work in the relationship that wore me out even though I stayed committed for 25 years the first time and with the second relationship I ended it after 8 years knowing that I would never get what was missing.  After a while in my first marriage my soul was starving for what was missing and that is a dangerous place to be because then I accepted a relationship because it had that one or two things that were missing from the first and I again settled for less than all "7 of the colors of feelings."

Now after my second divorce I have committed to taking some time to fill my soul with all 7 colors of feelings in my relationships with my adult kids, family and close friends.

Life is meant to be lived fully.

Peace and Love to you,


Monday, August 20, 2012

Truth or Dare? I chose TRUTH!

I love this quote from a German Philosopher that I came across years ago.  It goes like this;

"The insight into the three steps all truths go through before they are accepted;
1. It is ridiculed
2. It is violently opposed
3. Finally, it is accepted as self-evident."
---Aurthur Schopenhauer

I think of the times when I tell someone the truth as I know it and for reasons of their own I maybe ridiculed or what I told them is violently opposed.  Once, a person has done their own do diligence or they see through their smoke filled lenses and finally accept the truth as self evident then and only then is there TRUTH BETWEEN US!

That is a glorious moment!

I have learned that trying to convince someone of the truth is a waste of my time and energy and sometimes only fuels the ridicule and opposition.  So now I walk and let the person sit in their place until they accept and I move on to less resistant because after all if I stay in the energy of the ridicule or opposed then it keeps me away from the individuals who are open to newness and change.

Truth or Dare?

Are you ready to walk in truth?

Come on, I dare you!

Life is short folks!  Stand firm, stand strong and be powerful in knowing the truth!  The truth of who you are!


Thursday, August 16, 2012

Believing In Myself! Really, I Do!

I am not sure why it took me so long but boy oh boy I am so happy that I arrived at this place.  I have learned so many valuable things on my life journey this past year.  Mostly, to continue to go for it full out and with gusto.  I am a very capable woman and another person's reaction will no longer change or dictate who I am at my core.

I have learned God's Love God's Way and even if it looks different to others I will not stop loving on others for the sake of and the pureness of love itself. I don't believe that God wanted love to come with conditions other than following the Ten Commandments.

I have come across a richness and sweetness of life and feel very grounded and have faith in the direction that my life is going.  The ripple effects that I see in my family with my son's and daughter bring a closeness and sense of peace among us all.

Peace and love to my reader's and may you feel the blessings God bestows on you.


Sunday, August 5, 2012

Seeing Clearly Is Kinda Cool!

So, I am in another transition!  Do they ever stop?  I suppose if you are someone like me probably NOT!

I have been having such a pitty party lately and found it amazing that I slid into this but I guess that is what happens when you feel like the rug is pulled out from under you.

As I was settling into this single life and focus on my career and spending good quality time with my kids who are adults now and one a teenager, I was feeling very comfortable.  I hadn't thought that I would be moving and purchasing a new home for about 2 more years but my ex-husband was ready to make some agreements that has made it a good opportunity to move now.

I posted earlier that I am alone in this but as I cried and complained and reached out to friends and family, I found a lot of hands reaching to give me support.  So I brush my self off and wonder who the heck threw that dirt on me anyway but I guess it was just my silly fears getting me down and dirty.

I hate when that happens!  But I am so happy to see so many people love on me when I needed it.

Yeah, I need to remember that I did this!!!

I am truly blessed!